It’s quite the day!

Life is like a tree, with branches at every node, slowly growing and taking shape. (Image via Wikipedia)

You know how they say that when one door closes another opens? Well, I never truly believed that till now. What had been a disturbingly disastrous year had turned around to be rather fruitful one indeed. And yes, I am sort of talking about my mother’s philosophy of trying to find something positive in everything!

I’ve been frustrated, spent a hefty portion of my nights being teary eyed and had blamed practically everything and everyone in the vicinity, simply because I could. And well that I had an arsenal of valid reasons kind of helped…but that aside, all that bitterness was like a slow acting poison, making me twitchy and wary of almost everything around me. Of all the things that I learned this year it was that there will always be some people to instill that moment of doubt in you, to make you want to settle for things less than you, people who’ll wish you ill…but remember there will always be people who will tell you to climb higher and that it’s ok to stumble once in a while (but not enough to make a habit out of it), people who will be snarky and give you that shove, people who will give an honest and candid remark because as much as it hurts, it’s said for a reason…

So now here I am, taking small steps to start a brand new chapter in my life while the year steadily approaches an end. And even though I don’t celebrate Thanksgiving, I think I might just carve that turkey and say a short, silent prayer of thanks to Allah, Jesus, Buddha, Bhagoban and the numerous Gods and Goddesses out there for watching over me.

Adieu

Nothing...

Life is all about a series of choices. One wrong one and you might just lose your directions.

I have never thought I would find myself to be one of those lost lambs grazing in a green field. That just isn’t me. I was the girl who, if asked could tell what she wanted to be 10 years from the present…… a researcher studying genomes.

And now ask me what I am going to do tomorrow; I would smack you on the head and say “I don’t know what I am going to do TODAY let alone TOMORROW!!”

Wondering what happened that flipped my world upside down? I’ll tell you what happened……life happened.

Parents making bad choices about their children’s future without any regard to their potentials often end up lamenting over their decisions. Something similar happened over here as well. Now before you go and say that I am behaving like any teen and blaming everything bad on the parents, let me make something clear to you.

Yes, I DO share a small portion of the blame but at the end of the day when all that you can think of is how many more choices you would have had if only you were born a guy instead of a girl is not helping…at all. It’s SO frustrating that all that’s stopping you from going on a rampage is that thin, withered thread of sanity.

This was originally supposed to be a goodbye post of sorts and instead it decided to turn into this non-stop rant. Well, I’ll stop before someone decides to sue me for virtual damage to his/her ears and say what I wanted to say in the first place.

I’ve met some incredible people over here and old acquaintances have found me anew. As I step foot on this shaky bridge at this point of my life I hope I’ll have all your blessings and well wishes.

And so I bid you adieu and plunge right back into the books for my medical entrance exam and steal a peek at the crossed dates on the calendar…

(53 days left to go and to cram all the unholy history behind discoveries into my head…thank the heavens above that I already have 100/100 from my O and A levels…at least I won’t fail out of 200…)

New Life….??

Change.

One simple word that has the power to, well…change everything.

It’s been a little over 48 hours since the last change took place in my life. And while it did bring with the promise of a sweet, tender and succulent fruit, it has, so far delivered something quite different.

I have a very at-your-own-pace kind of personality. Regardless one of the things I’m quite nit-picky about a few things; cleanliness including basic hygiene and a good supply of clear water. Yes, I’m aware that I am sounding pretty bizarre right about now. Well, the thing is it turns out even those things are pretty scarce right now.

Now don’t give me that look, after heaving dry sobs a few hours back I’ve taken quite the sarcastic tone when describing things. And by things I mean the incredibly pristine state of my dorm, my my you can even see your reflection! Add to the fact that personal hygiene is a considered to be an art from here, I’m ecstatic to be here!

The only blessing would be that I have a few familiar faces hovering over my shoulders to make the sordid encounters barely passable.

Well it’s close to midnight and here’s to the fellow inmates sharing the same penalty as me. Cheers folks!!